Monday, June 15, 2009

The Sprouts

My first grade class is called "the Sprouts." (We were SUPPOSED to be "the Brussels Sprouts" but everyone made fun of me when I said the first word had an 's' at the end...) My co-teacher and I have 12 students and one tutor per student. I have no idea how one teacher and one aide could ever teach a class on their own. My kids were pretty well behaved and I still realized how much I needed to rely on the help of others. 

The tutors are mostly high school students from South Carolina (I think). They did a great job today of helping the students but not giving them the answers. They were really encouraging of the kids, too. 

I have the afternoon off for planning, and Tuesday and Thursday I'll be teaching Art in the afternoons. I got to be a part of the worship team today, so I sang along with the praise band, taught the kids a song, and got to pray for the day at the end. If you don't know, singing in public is normally out of my comfort zone. Doing anything in front of a group is WAY  outside my comfort zone. But today was really fun, and I'm excited to keep leading the kids in worship. God is really amazing with answering prayers for safety, strength, energy, excitement, love, and He definitely came through again in my nervousness about today. 

During math time, I walked over to one child to see how he was doing, and he got a big grin on his face and said to me, "I love this class!" I have no idea what I'm doing. God is so good.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Moving to Etzel

This past week, all of the interns got to move into homes on Etzel, a street in Wellston that several families from New City Fellowship have made home. Wellston is the poorest zip code in Missouri, with 94% of its residents living below the federal poverty line, and many living on half that amount. Most kids there are raised by a single working mom, and many are reared by their grandmother. It's a rough area (although the street we were on is sort of a bubble of low violence) where most young children have known someone who was shot, and many have seen someone be shot. These kids (and their families) deal with things nobody should have to face, and this week gave us a chance to look at their lives from an eyes-open perspective. 

Two other interns and I lived with the Patrick family, two beautiful children with a White dad and a Kenyan mother. They were so good and kind and welcoming to us that it almost didn't even feel like we were on Etzel. We were there, but we were still sheltered. I am so thankful for the time and laughter and wisdom that was shared. I do wish, though, that there had been more time somehow to immerse ourselves in the neighborhood. I think I'll get that opportunity more as the summer progresses, through using free times to play with the kids we've made friends with or doing simple projects to clean up the area. Now, though, I am stunned at my own ignorance to what life is like for so many. 

Half of the intern team ran a backyard Bible club this week for kids from the neighborhood. They were precious and loving and eager to participate. I met many who will be in my class for tutoring starting on Monday. The other half of the team went to play with Somali refugee children living around the block, and they were equally wonderful. But on Wednesday night, 15-20 rounds were fired right next to the Somali village, and both teams had to gather the kids against the nearest brick wall to wait for safety. The team with the Somali's could have been in grave danger; several were right next to a vehicle that had its windows shot out. But God protected all the team members as well as the children with them. My team was never immediately threatened, but it still gave us all a small taste of what is normal life for these small people. 

We called the police and waited for response before releasing the kids. I think a patrol car might have driven past about 20 minutes later. I'm not certain. 

The concern and desire to protect these children I'd know for 3 days astonished me. I struggle to imagine the panic parents in this area must feel when they let their kids step outside every day. Every goodbye must be almost unbearable for them. Yet life continues. Please pray for the safety of the Etzel and Hodiamont (refugee area) children.

more to come...

First Steps

I've made it through the first two weeks of the internship and arrived at my very first free time. Saturdays we have off, and today has been a wonderful chance to rest. Averaging five-six hours of sleep a night and running all day has been draining, but I've had extra energy that I know isn't coming from me. Today we left our host family for the past week, who I'll blog about later, after Rachel made us fresh fruit smoothies (yum!). I've gotten to spend time with a close friend today and enjoy the warm weather and the quirky Loop shops. I got to have some quiet time to myself. I feel refreshed.

There's so much to share from the last two weeks that I'm not sure where to start. I guess I'll begin with team training/tutoring prep to provide a glimpse into the majority of my time here so far. My first week here was focused on getting the know the team, growing to love this city, and exploring topics of social justice around the world. We did fun things like go to Shakespeare in the Park, see a play about Afghani refugees, eat local food, visit a circus, watch a documentary about the American Civil Rights movement, watch a film about life for women under the Taliban, and have a 'Retreat of Silence' (aka extended individual prayer/Bible study time) in a beautiful garden in the middle of an inner-city neighborhood. Many of those things will hopefully be the topics of individual posts. For now, we had lot of information smack us all at once. Some of it was enjoyable. Some of it was painful. All of it was informative. 

The time we weren't doing those things was filled with culture-training of sorts, including discussion of cultural lenses and how to lovingly interact with people who see things differently than we do, as well as get-to-know-you time with the intern team. I feel blessed to be getting to know the other people here. They are all fun and unique and God is really creating a safe and open community in our midst. I've already talked with two other women who are planning to move to St. Louis permanently after this summer, and one is looking for roommates! :)

Anyway, the first week was a total whirlwind of information and emotions and learning about God's heart for the poor and oppressed. I feel so at home here that I can ask hard questions and wrestle with things we discuss without any fear of judgment. In fact, lots of people have had the same questions I have. We are searching for answers together. 


**Hi, Barb!**

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Here we go!

Tomorrow is the big day. My clothes are (almost) packed and I can't wait to get to New City. I go with a grateful heart for the love and support that are sending me downtown and with this Biblical promise, brought up to me by two different loved ones:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will direct your paths."
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I stand in awe

Spring break could have been entirely meaningless. Instead, I was blessed to go to CityLights and serve alongside 50-some brothers and sisters, from all parts of the globe, all working together to grow God's Kingdom. I have never before felt such genuine Christian community. The experience was otherworldly. As hard as diving back into a broken world is, the fires have been fanned; I can't wait to seek out God's will for me to love the unloved. I can't wait to get back to CityLights, or to the city. I can't wait to see what my gracious God is going to do in me and through me. Bring on the real world.